Recently, I have developed some short term memory. I am wondering if it is my meds, or just getting older. I get very frustrated as I forget people, places, and times. In the past I had a very good memory, and would use these resources to help people. I am learning to just take it as part of my life. Maybe I will just have to accept this as a new me.
I have just accepted a brand new idea. If my memory is bad, then, I will not hold grudges inside of my heart, because I will forget them. I do not worry, and fret when things go crazy around me, nor do I try to do more than I should do. Try to let go of things, and be kind to everyone who you meet. It is very hard for me, but I am getting used to this short term memory.
The other day I was to take a dvd back to the store, and I forgot it. We came back to the house to pick it up, and I forgot it again. Finally, we came back home, picked up the dvd, and took it to the store. Karen said that I should have a list for everything that I do. I definitely concur with her.Take the positive side, and make it a pleasant day instead of a stressful day. Have a blessed day.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
The Lord is my light!
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.
5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
Chocolate Cake
Last night I made a chocolate cake. I believe that it is the best cake that I have made. It is two layers and has some awesome frosting to top it off. Then I came up with a nutty idea to bring it in to work to share it with our staff. I wanted a piece of that cake so bad. I put plastic wrap over it to keep me away from any temptation. Actually I desired to bless our staff.
Today I want to talk about temptations.The desire to have or do something that you know you should avoid; "he felt the temptation and his will power weakened" , as fruit of the tree of knowledge in Eden, has come to epitomize temptation. Temptations come when you least expect them. Just because someone drinks a beer does not mean that you should drink beer.
You may be tempted to look at internet porn which can destroy your marriage. You may be wanting to spend huge amounts of money on things which have no lasting value.You may have lust in your heart, and be tempted to pursue after other relationships. You know that these things are wrong yet you yield after them.
I am making right chooses today, and getting good results. The temptations are there, but I am choosing to say no to these temptations. Lying, cheating,lusting, gluttony, greed, despair, laziness, anger, envy, and pride. I am not perfect, and I fall short in many areas, but I am asking Jesus for his help. Guess what, He is helping me, and He will help you too.
In closing, I wish to share one of my favorite scriptures.1 Corinthians 10:13 - "There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." God will help you today. No matter what trial, or problem you are facing, God will bring you through. See you all soon.
Today I want to talk about temptations.The desire to have or do something that you know you should avoid; "he felt the temptation and his will power weakened" , as fruit of the tree of knowledge in Eden, has come to epitomize temptation. Temptations come when you least expect them. Just because someone drinks a beer does not mean that you should drink beer.
You may be tempted to look at internet porn which can destroy your marriage. You may be wanting to spend huge amounts of money on things which have no lasting value.You may have lust in your heart, and be tempted to pursue after other relationships. You know that these things are wrong yet you yield after them.
I am making right chooses today, and getting good results. The temptations are there, but I am choosing to say no to these temptations. Lying, cheating,lusting, gluttony, greed, despair, laziness, anger, envy, and pride. I am not perfect, and I fall short in many areas, but I am asking Jesus for his help. Guess what, He is helping me, and He will help you too.
In closing, I wish to share one of my favorite scriptures.1 Corinthians 10:13 - "There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." God will help you today. No matter what trial, or problem you are facing, God will bring you through. See you all soon.
Monday, September 14, 2009
The Prayer of my Heart
Dear Jesus,
I come to you with a heart to say that I love you. I need you so much as I feel some times that I am not going to amount to anything. I know that this is not true. I am your child, and you will never leave me. With Bipolar illness, I know that I will need to stay so close to you. I have my good days, and my bad days. Jesus, be Lord of all of my days. Heal me from my thoughts that leave me so empty inside. I am your child, and you are always there to guide me.
Jesus, be my light, and shine your light before me.I do not like the feelings of hopelessness. I know that for most people this is normal. It is very normal to have bad days. Lord, help me to accept bad days as just normal. I also wish to establish the setting of goals for my life. I want to lose weight, I wish to play my music, and I wish to preach at churches around the area.
Jesus, I must fight the good fight of faith, and hold on to your promises. I must create an atmosphere of worship in my home. I must learn to praise you in all things. When I have temptations, Lord go ahead of me, and keep my footsteps. I choose you Lord. Please keep my pure and holy.I love you Lord, and I lift my voice, to worship you. Today, is my day to prosper and be in good health, even as my soul prospers. Jesus, You are my Lord.
I come to you with a heart to say that I love you. I need you so much as I feel some times that I am not going to amount to anything. I know that this is not true. I am your child, and you will never leave me. With Bipolar illness, I know that I will need to stay so close to you. I have my good days, and my bad days. Jesus, be Lord of all of my days. Heal me from my thoughts that leave me so empty inside. I am your child, and you are always there to guide me.
Jesus, be my light, and shine your light before me.I do not like the feelings of hopelessness. I know that for most people this is normal. It is very normal to have bad days. Lord, help me to accept bad days as just normal. I also wish to establish the setting of goals for my life. I want to lose weight, I wish to play my music, and I wish to preach at churches around the area.
Jesus, I must fight the good fight of faith, and hold on to your promises. I must create an atmosphere of worship in my home. I must learn to praise you in all things. When I have temptations, Lord go ahead of me, and keep my footsteps. I choose you Lord. Please keep my pure and holy.I love you Lord, and I lift my voice, to worship you. Today, is my day to prosper and be in good health, even as my soul prospers. Jesus, You are my Lord.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Life is what you make it!
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I am letting things get to me, when things should be what I make them. My life has been going well lately, and I am starting to set some good goals. I should never allow things to get in my way, nor should I allow circumstances to block me from fulfilling my destiny.
Recently I have been thinking about evangelism, and helping churches where there is a need. I have been given a gift to stir up people and churches to do good works in the local church. I have taken a year off to get healthy, and to remain stable from my Bipolar illness. I have worked very hard to maintain my good health, and will continue to press on to be the Pastor that God wants me to be.
Life is what you make it to be. I believe that God will help me, as I read my bible, study, pray to Jesus, and share my gifts with those around me. God does help us when we call on his name. I believe in faith that works. Today make a plan to do something great for God. I try not to do my will, but to ask God what He wants me to do, and then to do it. Have a blessed day.
Recently I have been thinking about evangelism, and helping churches where there is a need. I have been given a gift to stir up people and churches to do good works in the local church. I have taken a year off to get healthy, and to remain stable from my Bipolar illness. I have worked very hard to maintain my good health, and will continue to press on to be the Pastor that God wants me to be.
Life is what you make it to be. I believe that God will help me, as I read my bible, study, pray to Jesus, and share my gifts with those around me. God does help us when we call on his name. I believe in faith that works. Today make a plan to do something great for God. I try not to do my will, but to ask God what He wants me to do, and then to do it. Have a blessed day.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Pressing on!
I am learning to press on. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. ( Phil. 3: 14) My Bipolar illness has tried to stop me from success, and moving forward. I must not allow people, negative thinking, or bad circumstances to hinder my forward progress. I am going to daily bath myself in the word of God, and in confessions of what I am in Christ Jesus.
With Bipolar illness I fight staus quo, mind battles, moodswings, and passivity. No one knows what it is like to be used to be so on fire for Christ, and then move to a well, that's the way it's going to be attitude.
Most people live in the past, and are afraid to venture out into the future, maybe beacause of fear or a lack of motivation. I believe that you and I have a dream from God and that we must act on that dream. I also believe that there are those who will try and stop you from fulfilling your destiny from the Lord.
Pray for me, that God will open up the right doors for me to preach and teach the Gospel. I feel that I am moving in the right direction, and that I am ready. Goals and plans are good as long as they are in God's master plan. I do feel good about life right now, and am excited about my work. I am in the people ministry, and desire to help people grow. I see myself in God's will today. I will live in the future. Have a great week, Van
With Bipolar illness I fight staus quo, mind battles, moodswings, and passivity. No one knows what it is like to be used to be so on fire for Christ, and then move to a well, that's the way it's going to be attitude.
Most people live in the past, and are afraid to venture out into the future, maybe beacause of fear or a lack of motivation. I believe that you and I have a dream from God and that we must act on that dream. I also believe that there are those who will try and stop you from fulfilling your destiny from the Lord.
Pray for me, that God will open up the right doors for me to preach and teach the Gospel. I feel that I am moving in the right direction, and that I am ready. Goals and plans are good as long as they are in God's master plan. I do feel good about life right now, and am excited about my work. I am in the people ministry, and desire to help people grow. I see myself in God's will today. I will live in the future. Have a great week, Van
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